As fall is settling in upon us, I'm realizing that I haven't found my groove just yet. We're still adjusting to full day school for Sparky and since Catfish hasn't started his preschool yet, I know our daily schedule is going to change yet again.
And as I think back over the years, I see a pattern of back-to-school time coming and me frantically trying to get everything in order. I go through a period of everything all out of sorts and I want it to get into some kind of routine, and fast. Its like I have a two week crazy period and I can't really settle down or even breathe until it gets predictable again.
I wonder why that is? Why am I so focused on trying to maintain control and order? Gosh, even as I write that, it sounds pretty awful. Its not like I want my household to be run like a police state.
I just wish I could deal with the transistion times a little better. That I could recognize the joy in the crazy days as well as the ones that are neat and tidy.
So I'm looking for balance (aren't we all). Trying to find balance in my need for a schedule and my life that demands we go without one for a while. And I'm trying to find peacefullness in both places.
And there you have it...my random rambling for the day :-)
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